So I guess spoiler alert! As aforementioned, the first man (and so far, only man) I fully gave my heart to wound up hurting me pretty bad. It's almost pointless to go into the sappy love details.
But. At first he did love me. God, you could see it in his eyes. It looked like they were melting into green M&Ms when he'd say my name. I didn't love him at first. My best friend asked if I loved him... I said, I just feel like I'm supposed to take care of him. And for years I did just that. I was his Jesus. I always tried to make it better for him. He was prone to sadness and ultimately anger.
He never appreciated me.
But was there ever dog that praised his fleas? - Yeats
And that's how he saw me. Before we were married he fought so hard for me. Afterwards, I was just a burden. A trinket on his shelf. A punching bag
And bigger spoiler alert. Guess who's getting remarried?!?!? You're right. Not me.
I wasn't good enough. I wasn't meek and a rollover china doll. But there's more to come! Years of self-sacrifice and nothing to show for it. And months of funny, life changing ex-capades.
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